Saturday, July 14, 2007 l
today was finally the day where everything btw bestie and i were being thrashed out. all the times i have let u down, not being there for you, not being able to find solutions to your always present problems, and not being able to sense that something was wrong. to be damn straight, i knew that there was something wrong btw the both of us. i know u were pissed with me ever since sat, but i could not do anything cos my mind was focused on WDS and my projects. Well, i know i have manipulated and taken great advantage of you lately, but sometimes i hope u would try to understand how i feel!!
If any one has a problem, i must be told straight in the face, and not through emo words man, i mean my language is not that strong as u but i hope u can be more open! frankly speaking, i think u are really quite weird sometimes, and it makes me wonder why we are still BESTIES and good pals, u said that it was the distance between our house, but i say its the true friendship, the pain and hardship that both u and i have seen each other through in the past 5 years. NO ONE knows me better than u do, not even my parents. well, i know i've disappointed u time and time again but i really had not much of a choice.
Well, in short , this is an APOLOGY to you and hope that we would continue as best buddies and perhaps even closer as your A's draws near. The conversation we had just now was really inspirational and motivating. U have somewhat encouraged me to set goals in my life and learn to achieve them! Right now, my goals are: 1) to focus on my studies, get back my studying mood and do well in my grades in school!!
2) try to maintain all friendships that i have and try to treasure all close people as much as possible!!
3) quit smoking, even socially and with start exercising, getting back my fitness for the 5Km run that is coming up soon!!!
4) spend less money and save more for a rainy day!!
I really sincerely hope that u can help me to achieve my goals and not stumble in my way. today was a sad day for the both of us but i hope that all things turn out well for the both of us. kinda glad that u finally ended a rather one-way relationship with (19) and decided to start opening and treasuring your peeps in school. i know u would be able to get along with them and i wish u all the best with all your relationships with 19, farrell, denise, clarence, etc....
well, i really dunno wad else to say la! "MANY THANKS FOR BEING THERE WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE"......
I don't care and I'm not okay
2:17:00 AM
