Sunday, July 27, 2008 l Finally A Long Post After a Long Time
Countless number of people have been asking me to write a post, but i keep on procrastinating because i have just so much to write about, but so little time to dwell on them.
For those who have commented that my previous posts' have been super long winded, and draggy, u all just have to bare with it, cos that's just me. I am the sort who writes darn lots of shit cos i dun bother to do a post daily.
Loads of things has happened since my original last post, which was like when dinosaurs were still around. Anyways, i stress on original post because some of the recent post published are actually not the real James.
-Argh, just got interrupted by the monkey lover!
Anyways, both my Best Friend and close buddy are in army, and i am not too sure who to hang out with nowadays. Abel?? But they guy is going in next year, and it would only make me more depressed when he leaves. Is my close tennis buddy gonna be able to sort out his personal problems? Or am i gonna be left with no one even to hang out in sch? Malia, is sometimes quite different from her usual self which makes me feel uncomfortable at times. What about PY>>>? HMM....
Kannan has like gone through the worst possible kinda relationship with his girl, and i think that he does need a rebound girl temporarily before he can move on, but who is gonna see him and understand the man? I just hope that its gonna be someone sweet and one who won't break his heart ever again. Honestly, if u ask me, i think his previous girl deserves a hell of a shelling, and the guy she went for instead of my bro ought to be fucked inside out. BUT, i sat down and think, why should all these things matter to me? I am not gonna be involved because love is blind and it can be a painful experience for many. Friends come and go, but those who are close to you remain forever true and faithful! "BRO, I HOPE YOU GET OVER THIS WHEN YOU ARE IN BMT, COS WHEN YOU ARE OUT AND FINALLY GET YOUR POSTING, I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE PROBABLY GOTTEN OVER THIS MATTER AND MOVE ON WITH LIVE, AND HAVING LOVE AS A SECOND PRIORITY." TAKE CARE!
Samuel is caught in between his relationship with the girl he loves so much that he is willing to give up his relationship. Initially i told him to follow his heart, but a couple of weeks back, he asked me whether he should follow his mind or follow his heart still? Can your heart lead you towards a wrong path? Or is it your mind that is telling you that your heart is leading you towards a wrong path?? Lasting relationships need a mediator, and there is none who is better that God. Thus i conclude that i do not regret breaking up with my ex-girlfriend.
I have had a mixture of emotions and feelings over the past 3 weeks. I had met up twice with my ex-girlfriend over the past week, stayed up an entire night with no sleep editing OB project, rushed like a panicked chicken to help Han Lin and Hizzam for Kryston's surprise birthday celebration, skipped school cos the weather was too nice to stay in bed and ended up being called by my care person, but the happiest moment was when my team managed to win Champions the BIT Captain's ball competition. Yeah! I would say it was a team effort and everyone gave their best! =)
Meeting up with my ex, and watching a movie with her was interesting. I got to catch up on a few things! I am happy for her for being able to move on with her new found serious boyfriend Han Wei, who is also a christian! I was shocked to hear that sentence come out from her mouth. I think that its a good thing to know that people have matured over time and that they no longer see you as the same person as before. I think things between me and Natalie are different because she thinks that i am egoistic and not myself when i am around her. She thinks i am too cautious of her, or at least she thinks i have changed in my character and behavior. Well, i must admit, people do change, and i am not an exception. I think i have become a better person after knowing Jerlynn who has not only brought me lots of laughter, but also showed me the real meaning of caring and showing love towards someone.
-Banana, the roller coaster ride is going to be a long and bumpy one, but together, we would pull through!-
To sum things up about Natalie, i think i just have to start afresh to know her new self. I cannot take for granted of what i used to know about her because some of those facts are long gone with the wind!
I am so glad that many turned up for Kryston's bday party, but i was super tired and drained out when we were tonning at my neighbourhood park, and i think i was a lil tipsy. Hahas, good thing was that there were sober people around to knock some sense back into me when i was lying on the ground. I think getting to know Lin and Zam was a great experience. Even Meida was different from what i perceived their clique to be. Perception over took me and i am sorry for thinking wrongly about them. Good to know that they are friendly people to talk to and mix around with. Cheers to a successful BBQ! I hope Kryston was happy to know that her bf was there to surprise her too!
I am looking forward to the ZEE"S outing to Malaysia, and also looking forward to working with Rip on his various upcoming projects together with the Zee people. I think that lots of effort and commitment is needed for such a large scale of events. Hope that my schedule would permit such opportunities. I am also looking forward to tomorrow cos its our 8th month celebration with HER and i would like to spend some time together with her, cos its been a long time since we've met up. Baby if u are reading this, do surprise me with something!!! HAHAS!
Here comes the sad part of my current life. I am desperately struggling with my course BIT, esp with OTBS. Designing the freaking front end of the page is drastically bad enough, plus next semester brings out whole new modules, which only get tougher and tougher, and with MAF as my elective, i am not too sure what windows are left open for me. I am praying hard that God might show me a light at the end of my dark weary tunnel. I am also having difficulty saving up, partially because i'm in a relationship, and also because i think i am not getting sufficient money for my allowance. Well, can't ask for an increase too soon, so i'll just have to work to fund my own life. Better start early than late. Lastly, end of semester exams are coming and i am terribly worried. I would like to put aside all my other commitments and just sit down day in and night to mugg my ass off for these upcoming papers cos i need a good gpa record to excel further beyond polytechnic. I hope for better lecturers and tutors next semester too, cos my statistic's teacher is BAD! Not used to his teaching style and method and i can't really understand his lectures.
Alright, i think i shall better be heading to do my statistic tutorial now. Probably not sleeping the night again. Nights baby, and sorry for not being able to talk over the phone cos i was BLOGGING! (not dota-ing, nor watching movies) Cya on tuesday, and pls confirm with me your plans! <3
I don't care and I'm not okay
11:55:00 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008 l
SCREAMMMM
I don't care and I'm not okay
11:00:00 PM
