Wednesday, September 26, 2007 l
Woke up yesterday feeling a little queasy, and a little sick....i wanted to stay home to slack, rest and recuperate all the sleep that i have lost over the many many days spent talking and out at night. But i could not do just that, cos i was suppose to go meet Jerlynn and accompany her to her job interview at Toa Payoh. I called her that morning and told her my situation, and i came to a conclusion that if i still felt sick after my bath, i would stay home to rest. In actual fact, after my bath, i still was feeling feverish and somewhat sick, nonetheless, i called Jerlynn and told her that i was feeling alright. I got dressed and took MRT to Toa Payoh. Upon meeting her there, i asked her for the exact address, which she had written down. When i saw the address, i was shocked, as it wrote; 247 Paya Lebar Road. DANG!!! Totally on the opposite side of Singapore. With faith in making it for the interview, we took the train all the way back to Paya Lebar. At City Hall, when we were supposed to cross over and change train, she just broke down into tears. As the doors opened at City Hall, there were streams of tears flowing from her eyes. I dunno wad made her cry at that point of time. We sat at the benches at the station and i did what all sensible guy would do....comfort her. After a while i realized that i had to just let all her tears flow dry from her tear bags!! So i did, i also comforted her...cos i just did not like the idea of girls crying, and this situation was different as i did not do anything to hurt her, nor harm her, so other ppl around would think otherwise.
Thankfully she stopped and i told her that everything was alright. Ppl do make mistakes and that is where we learn from them. If the whole world were to be perfect, this would be a very imperfect world, Singapore would not be the way it is at the present state. After the everything cooled off, i wanted to give her a hug, but was unsure whether she would accept and take it in the right way, as i meant it to be, so i did not. I held back until we boarded the next train to Paya Lebar. On the train, we stood on our own, as in separate. I wanted her to lean on me, but i just could not force a girl to do that. If my memory does not fail me, i think i did hug her on the train, just before we reached our destination. When we were waiting for the bus to the address, i asked her why she cried, and she asked me what i thought the answer was.....so i told her that she felt bad and sorry for making me travel all the way to Toa Payoh and back again. Well, in the actual fact was that i was feeling totally fine and that i had no grudges towards her once we tapped back into Toa Payoh MRT, and when i squatted at the lift. Nonetheless, all things went well, we managed to make it for the interview before 3pm, and i met my ex-counsellor, Joshua. He was helping out in the shop which we went for an interview....they were selling Christian items, from books, shirts, sweaters, files, nearly everything.
After the interview, we went to town to meet Jerlynn's Ai rens. We went to Sakae at The Heeren. Met Amanda, Wan Zhen, Donovan, Wei Dong, Michelle, Si Qi, Wan's friends! We ate like a whole load of food!!! Like dunno 60 plates from the buffet! HAHAS! I paid for the 8 persons buffet, wait, more like 7, cos they counted wrongly! HAHAS!!
After our meal, we Jerlynn and i went to church for prayer meeting. After prayer meeting, we bought candles and went to meet Jerlynn's ai rens. We took 76 from opp church and went to stop at Amk interchange, thinking that we were goin to Ponggol Park. After which, we boarded back on 76 cos we thought we decided on Amanda's house.....after a while, they wanted to go Ponggol Park and the decision was final, so i could not do anything about that. I was not feeling too well, but still i told Jerlynn that i wanted to go to Ponggol. I did not choose to go Ponggol Park for your sake, more rather i wanted to really know how to play candles. I had not played it when i was a kid...and i also told Amanda that i would not Pang Seh her. So i was determined on going to meet them!
I am indeed thankful that we went to meet the rest, cos i had such a great time, especially with the one closest to me now!! Thanks for all the happy times, and also the sad times that you've brought me! MANY THANKS!!!
We left Ponggol Park rather late, 1am plus....we bought supper back home foe Jerlynn's parents who are always up doing work! While walking to her block, i realised that my shades were missing from my forehead. I soon thought back where i last left it, and i retraced them back to the bench Jerlynn and We got them Mee Siam, Duck Porridge, and Prata. They ate the mee siam and left us with prata and the duck porridge, which did not have much taste in it! Anyways, somehow or rather, i was finally allow to stay in her house, aft many failure attempts, it all paid off. I stayed up till 4 plus 5, and finally my body could not take it anymore, so i turned in. I got woken up by Jerlynn shaking me. Wait, it felt the same as the way she shook me to go brush my teeth before i slept....something like " james, go go go brush your teeth, break, go brush your teeth, faster go brush your teeth!!!" So so so so irritating man! I dunno wad will happen if she ends up my wife man! I will most certainly dread it man! HAHAHAS!!!! (no offence!!)
Got woken up with her shaking me and then she just laid down on her bed, the same bed i slept on, so moved inwards and gave her space. Before i knew it, she is on the same bed as me and we are sleeping together. I was so tired that i could literally sleep till 4pm... We just lazed in bed....we got really really close to one another in bed, and we were listening to some nice Chinese songs, and i was facing her, and she was facing me, i really wanted to give her a kiss on her lips but i refrained myself from doing so probably because she told me before that she wanted to hold hands only till when we were together, so i just forced myself to resist. BUT....we were in that position for a very very very long time and finally i just gave her a kiss on her lips and went to brush my teeth. She did not say anything, nor did she reject it immediately. Well, i dunno how she felt, but i felt nice, and good after that. She lied to me abt her brushing her teeth, cos i could smell from her breadth! HAHAHS!! (i've got a strong sense of smell!) I would love to know her response to this morning's situation at her house. :D
We left her house this afternoon at 2 plus. We were headed to my house, course she wanted to come my house. We dropped our stuff and went to eat at different taste. Came back, went online and just slacked till 8 plus, had dinner and continued slacking on the computer. I showed her the box which contained all the past things relating to natalie, my ex-girlfriend. She read the journal which i started while with Nat, and she has it with her at this resent moment. Her mood changed after she started reading the book, i dunno what caused this change, but i think its something to do with me and the book. Thus, i did not ask further, since she said she did not know what caused the change herself. I just saw her to my house bus stop and watching her leave me on the bus made me promise myself that from today onwards, i will make it a point to follow Jerlynn home every time i go out with her. I PROMISE!! :X
Anyways, i hope to hear from Jerlynn soon, and i hope that i have said all of what i wanted to say and i also hope that our relationship would take a step forward! I had a really nice time staying over at your place, playing scrabble and having you to irritate me, sleeping on you soft bed, sleeping in you room which never seems day time to me!!!! :D
Till next time then.....
I don't care and I'm not okay
9:38:00 PM
