Wednesday, October 31, 2007 l
Today was filled with more DOWNS than UPS. I got up, gave Malia a wake up call, and then went back to sleeping, cos it was raining and it was so cold and cozy to sleep in! Without my knowledge, the time passed by so quickly that the next time i saw my clock on my phone, it was already 0830hrs. I immediately jumped out of my bed and rushed to the toilet, took a bath and got dressed, skipped my breakfast, and got my dad to speed me to school. On the journey to school, Malia told me that she was not going for lecture cos she was having a bad headache, and thus chose to sleep in. My dad managed to make it to school on the dot, just in time for EBM lecture. Lecture was so boring and dead that i wanted to just walk out, but i didn't cos i had no where to go and no one else would leave with me. :(( After lecture, went to eat at design school, ate chicken chop...!! My table had Ben, TW, Darren and myself. I started by asking Ben where he and his girlfriend went to eat dinner yesterday, and i soon started probing more abt him, his finances and his lifestyle. Also inquired more abt Jovina and he told us abt her physic. Interesting!!! The topic that stuck to my mind like glue was the topic on saving....we were all discussing how we could save cash every week....for whatever reasons, i was and still am finding it hard to save up money....one reason why i am saving is that i need to pay people back cash. I don't wanna be owing people cash before the year comes to an end. So i've decided to save up and pay back my debts. Everything seemed fine till we went for SAS tutorial ....that was when i started feeling gloomy, or maybe since EBM lecture, i dunnno. My frens could tell that i was rather emo, and moody. I tried my best not to show it, cos i knew that they didn't like it. So i just told Soon Xiang that i was tired, nothing else. Anyways, after lunch, i called Jerlynn too see whether she had left house, but to my surprise she was on her way to school alr. HAHAHAHASS!!! I was surprised, until she told me that she had some group meeting....Back to SAS tutorial, i was moody cos i knew i could not meet up with her. I tried forgetting it and went ahead to play with the rubix cube, got more frustrated so i started looking into Leah's bag!!! Got really amused with the contents in her bag. HAHAHSS!!!
Went home after SAS lecture, and did not message her since then. I went home, ate and watched Heroes and then went to sleep. Woke up at around 1800hrs and went out to meet Nat to pass her her birthday presents. Met her at her house, passed her the stuff and went to parkway to change some left over currencies...and headed home!! On the way home, i was thinking on how i could save the $50/- my dad gave my this week, and yet buy bus concession for the next month. I tried calculating whether i could spend less than $45 bucks on transport in a month, but i dun think that's gonna be possible. My target of saving $300/- cannot be broken!!! :(
While bathing just now, the sting for my cross came lose and i cannot seem to tie it back...so i can't wear it anymore. I hope to get it fixed asap, during my free time. I hope to start running regularly to get back my fitness and leg strength....
>I got a message from Jerlynn, asking me whether i was still a sad and emo boy....i told her that i was not anymore, but deep inside me i was still emo, probably of the fact that i went to meet my ex-girlfriend and that hug we had brought back lots of memories. It was not a long hug, but i could feel and tell from that few seconds that she still has a place for me in her heart. I dunno how to say it, but i know that things would not work out between us, cos firstly she isn't a christian, secondly because of her lifestyle. I would not wanna drift away from my walk with GOD, not after so much effort done by Jerlynn and also by myself. Well, i think that i owe Jerlynn an APOLOGY.
Well, i gotta go for a run now to take things off my mind and clear some thoughts. Had thoughts of buying a pack again just now while on the way home...but refrained yet again because of the promise i took with HER and MYSeLf!!! Gotta stay healthy!!
I don't care and I'm not okay
9:04:00 PM
