Thursday, October 4, 2007 l
We just had a small dispute just now. Well, i was irritating her on msn and calling her by OI, and i overdid it. She got really irritated and some how told me off in a very rude way, at least that was how i felt. So i apologized, trying to make her smile back, trying to get her to forgive me. My last statement to her was " i am sorry dear". I was waiting for her response, hoping that she would feel better abt it, probably bring a smile to her face.
>but to my surprise, she told me "i am not your dear." I felt like a nobody after that, and inside of me, i felt like screaming F**K so loud till i wake my siblings. Maybe i was too sensitive, but somehow i knew that statement was a sincere and a real one. So i straight away purposely said bye and went offline. While watching secret, i felt crappy, and chose not complete it. Played spider solitaire and pondered on things. Went back online and wrote this : James says:
i know you were pissed at me calling you the way i did just now. well, i apologised jus now and i felt that you should have forgiven me. I know i went a little over board and i apologise again! Hope you dun takt it too seriously, but i went offline to cool myself down. I was a little too frustrated with your response. thats all. I am cool now and i wan to talk to you. I really wanna speak to you!
James says:
will you pls call me whenever you are free?
She did not reply me, cos she thought i was offline. So i appeared online and soon enuff, aft a long time she replies telling me that she went to shower. Okays, and i was waiting for a more responsive answer. NVM, she just said that everything is alright, and that she wanted to read the Bible and wanted to write her dairy. So i agreed. Now, we are chatting over msn.....spare me man!
I don't care and I'm not okay
3:07:00 AM
