Wednesday, October 3, 2007 l
Yesterday was the first time we never really did anything to one another. We really were trying our best to refrain from being too close to one another, fearing that we might not be able to control ourselves. Well, we managed to pull through the day, more of the entire afternoon. Had dinner with her parents, said grace for the food and ate a sumptuous meal...loved the fellowship with them much more than the food. Honestly, all the dishes were too salty, but we should not complain cos God has Blessed us with the food before us. So i kept my mouth shut. Prawns were nice!!! Haven't eaten those in a long time!!! YUMMY!!!! :DD Went to get some groceries from PRIME, and aft that went home.
<>{ I felt that the time spent with Huimin's parents are much more quality time spent with my own parents. HONESTLY! Her parents are so lovable, caring and affectionate to one another, let alone to me. I think she is really blessed with such loving and caring parents. When i was telling them abt my parents vocation, i was rather sad, as i saw the great vast difference in her family and mine. Hers was small, and simple, getting through life happily, whereas mine was so much more different. I was the smallest, and the age gap between my siblings is just so big. At least 7-8 yrs till my younger sis nessa! How am i suppose to get close to them? They were too busy for a kid like me when i was young cos they were probably busy mugging their butts off, hoping to get into a good sch which my parents had probably planned, getting into a good university, and getting a good stable career. Looking at them now, i think they have accomplished all just that, except leaving their younger brother out. Not bonding with him, not brining him out to the park as often as they went out to play. I dunno wad to say, except that; I feel that i am being left out in all my family's lives. They are either too busy with work, their social life and worrying on how to get a good and high paying job that they have freaking hell lost their youngest brother.}
Enuff abt me. I totally screwed things up. I forgot to pass Huimin her house key to open her house door. I wanted to bang my head against something hard and scream out loud the moment i heard her teary and sad voice on the noisy bus. I knew she was crying and only found out the real reason why she cried.
James says:
when were you crying??
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
cos i felt very alone very afraid very abandoned.
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
whn i called you.
James says:
i know
James says:
okays!
James says:
i promise this will never happen again!
James says:
i promise
James says:
cross my heart
James says:
prepare to die!
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
haha i've never felt tht for a long time or never felt tht beofre.
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
*before.
James says:
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SORRIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
so i cried.
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
haha
3 more mins to end of the world. constant reminder. die. i'm scared. says:
it's okay.
Well, from the above extract, i can infer that i had been totally a fool. I forgot to do something very important and i was not responsive in picking my calls. She called my 5 times from the police station and all i did was listen to my music and read my darn book, as the phone vibrated on and on in my freaking bag. So stupid of me, to leave my phone in my bag. WHY???? Because i dun like things in my pocket, cos it made them look bulky. Then why did they create such a things called pockets???? DUMBASS!!!! Well, i hope that she really accepts my apologies and forgives me. I hope that all things turn out good later when we talk. Hopefully! :)
Till the next happenings.....
I don't care and I'm not okay
12:52:00 AM
