Friday, November 9, 2007 l
Wednesday seemed alright only until the part where Jacqueline started messaging me, and telling me how much she missed me and how she was doing without her Edwin in her life....i was so darn irritated that i just wanted to call her and shout "FUCK YOU BITCH" until she started crying....but i didn't! WHY, i also don't know. She kept on asking me what i wanted between the both of us, as if we were something in the past. We were just normal friends and i think she treats me as a substitute. She came to me when Edwin and her could not talk to one another due to O levels, and parents restrictions, she also came to me whenever she quarreled with him and she came to me whenever she "missed" hearing my voice. WTF man!!!! I have never met anyone in my life who is that selfish and that self-centered. She has no feelings whatsoever towards how i felt, how i am now, whether i have another girl in my life, whether i am coping with my studies or even my previous knee injury has been. Instead she starts a conversation with me by saying that she misses me and wants to be mine....seriously FUCK THAT MAN!!!! I don't even know her, and she wants me to be hers, when she is still attached to EDWIN, who by the way is not 1% good looking at all, neither is she, okays, maybe 3%??? Perhaps, varying on different preferences. After messaging her like what seemed the entire afternoon, i went to meet Huimin, who immediately cheered me up when i saw her bubbly face!!! =DD Met her to together with her classmates at BIZ PARK, where they were using my LAPPIE to do some research and work. I den decided to go home to take "Discovering Computers and Excel" books for Huimin. I forgot to bring them to school earlier. My crumpler bag was killing me already, and i wanted to like carry another seperate bag to split the load. Went home, bathed and changed, took the required books, and some extra stuff, and went back to school. At the interchange, i then remembered that i forgot to bring my glasses! DANG!!! NVM, went to school, met them at the basketball courts, and somehow i started playing basketball. It was rather boring for me, not because i did not like basketball, but because there was not much to play among ourselves. I wanted to play a proper 5v5 match if i were to sweat it out in my white skinnies, and puma shoes. But there was no one to compete with, so we just played among ourselves. After playing for like 3-4 hrs, my back and legs started aching, probably because i have not exercised much recently.
After basketball, went opposite school to eat, drink, and laugh ourselves out. We had some beer, and we had our meals happily, well, everyone except Don and Si Qi. I think that Don was not really fair in asking the whole group other than me, and Huimin to go to TM to meet him. I clearly remembered Amanda telling all of us that he was goin home via car, and that he was not joining us. When we boarded 23, he called Amanda and asked where we were and that he wanted to meet up with us. Huimin and I left earlier cos we had our own plans, and partly also because we thought that we need not travel all the way to TM when its not even out faults. We took 27 to Sengkang, and we crashed home rather late. The bus ride on 27 was super uncomfortable, people pushing and shoving their bags and bodies against me, causing me much discomfort, and even some guys bag hit my shoulder so hard that it hurt for a while. Back at HOME 2, i was not feeling any good, my back was stiffen and i could barely walk from our stop back home, cos i was carrying a 10kg backpack and a 15kg sling bag. Huimin was carrying my laptop, and i dare say that i wasn't feeling too good on the walk to her place, but i didn't wanna show it, fearing that she might take some load from me and injure herself my over-straining herself. So i just bared with it till we reached the door step. I was so relieved that everything didn't matter what happened after that.
What happened at her place is kept between the both of us, but all i can say that i had a great time sleeping over at her place on wednesday night, and i also discovered some new things about her. HAHAHASS!!!! I shall not disclose any thing more than what i wanna say. I think that she is a wonderful girl, filled with emotions, feelings, love, concern, very receptive, and open to all new things. I think that she is unique and special to me. I would never never ever wanna lose such a girl like her, even if she does not accept me in the future, i would still keep in contact with her. I PROMISE! =))
Thursday, Deepavali, was nothing facinating. Went back to school for SAS project. I took 27 back to school, and the bus was so bloody crowded, had to stand. Though my bag was lighter, the pain in my back did not seem to go away after a long night's sleep. My back was just crying out to me each time the bus jerked on the brakes...i had to hold on so tightly as if i was like some old person. I somewhat regretted playing bball on wednesday. BUT, i played it cos of friends, maybe i gave too much there. Anyways, i was not too late for our meeting. But Jeremy and Leah was late, and i mean really late. Jeremy was 50 mins late, his excuse- he came from Malaysia, still acceptable. Leah was 2hrs late. We started playing Dota initially, but we got bored and we started work first. I was rather pissed initially, but i choose not to get mad, if not it would have affected both my mood and my participation in contributing to the grp later. I knew Teck Wee was super pissed with Leah, he did not even say a word, to her, nor did he look at her. At one point, Leah started to rub her eyes, and i think she was tearing...I THINK! After which, she said that she would do all the remaining work, hoping that it would help the situation, but we didn't buy it. I responded to her by saying that we are a slackers' group, and that she need not be so stressed up. We continued with whatever we could, till i found out that dinner at Huimin's place was supposed to be at 6.30. All the long i thought that it was at 8.00pm. I started getting worried and that i would not make in time, so i asked T.W to send me home. His car is rather small and cute, and he drives rather smoothly. HAHAS!!! Don't tell him that!
Went home, changed bathed and went to Huimin's house again in a cab. Thankfully the driver sped there, even though i was late, the main goal of going there fast was not to make Huimin wait too long, cos she was already hungry and i did not want her to get all moody. The meal was a great one, reminded me of chinese new year...HAHAHS!!! Crabs, steamed fish, clams, asparagus, fish more soup....one of my favourites. YUMMY!!! Had 2 glasses of red wine, and i turned red like instantly la. Went to lie on her bed, and the next thing i knew was Huimin asking me to leave her house, if not i could not go home. So i got up, and left asap, hoping not to miss the last bus. I just managed to catch the last bus home. PHEW!!!
Just realised that i got like BA work to do, and i am still blogging. Alrighty man, gonna do some work even though my eyes are like shutting close now. I wanna play dota aft that too...HAHAHASSS!!!! Or maybe watch prison break....=)
I don't care and I'm not okay
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