Friday, December 21, 2007 l
On the 8th of December, i made a very special girl feel so sad and disappointed till she burst out buckets of tears, and eventually changed her mood. I started smoking once again. Out of feeling stress, i bought a pack while mugging for the mid-semester tests. I felt guilty keeping things from her, so i confessed to her, and told her the whole truth. That was when everything started changing, i knew that inside her she was feeling like so down that she did not have any mood to study for her mid-semester papers. I could sense the emotions she was having when i called her back at around 12plus, and i noticed a change in her tone of voice, so i knew that feeling different. We talked about the issue and we both came to an agreement that we would not talk to each other for 4 days, which was the number of sticks i had on that very day. We both followed on the various agreements, but we started talking to each other on tuesday onwards. She was sorry for being too harsh on me, as she felt that the "punishment" was too much for me, but i was feeling much more sorry for letting my baby girl down, i wanted to meet up with, just to be next to her would make me feel much better. I can say that this situation caused both of us to lose focus on our mid-semester tests preparations, especially for me cause i had 6 papers within a week. Well, i am glad that everything has been worked out, and all things have been resolved.
I don't care and I'm not okay
9:20:00 AM
