Thursday, January 3, 2008 l
The past few days has been a naggy one for me, and even when baby came over, my mom was like lecturing her for nearly an hour, i hated it and i was really agitated by the simple fact that my mom did not know when to stop lecturing. Yesterday, i was talking to my parents on some matters, and my mom suddenly brought up the topic on petting and stuff, it rang a bell to me but i did not know whether she was refering to me. I soon found out today that she was, as my dad told me that what me and huimin are doing is wrong and that i was just fullfilling my fleshly deires, and i pretended to act blur, hioping that he would tell me his source of information, and he soon spilled it out. My red "LOVE" book, saw me write a page of how we both experienced our first kiss, and how i slept on her bed till 5 the following afternoon after sleeping over, thats if i recall properly. Well i knew that there was this day where we were suppose to go out for breakfast with the rest of the Zee organisation and we ended staying in her home, and we did not leave house till 5pm. Baby, i dunno whether you remember that, i hope some recollection would come to you. Well, i did not exactly write every single discription in the book, but it was enough for my parents to know that i was up to no good, and i truly was, but that was in the past. I have committed this matter to God and have asked him for his forgiveness and we are both trying our best not to give into temptation, as satan is always there tempting everyone of us. It is certainly difficult for me, but i know that after telling huimin my situation, i knew she was more greatly affected as compared to me. I dun think my parents would do such a thing like slapping you across the face, as i did not clearly decribe every detail, and i certainly do not think that they would start counselling ya, cos i dun think my dad is that kind, but then again, i dun really know my parents that well.
Well, there are two ways as to how things are going to go down. I can say that what i wrote about a relationship with another girl, or i can admit that it was true, and we are both trying our very best, with God's help to stop succumbing to temptations, and that we have both realised that it was wrong after that first time. Well, we can discuss about it and we can come to an agreement as to what will happen from here on, and the consequences and set backs that would follow with either one of the decisions. I am hoping that all things turn out well, so that both of us can benefit. I hope that my parents can be more undderstanding and stuff, so i shall let things settle and stuff, praying and hoping for God's way to take control over this matter.
waiting for your call....
I don't care and I'm not okay
11:58:00 PM
